Awkward!!!!!!

So tonight i have to go to my future highschool. You know, freshman orientation kind of stuff. Now don't get me wrong, i really, really REALLY wanna graduate and head off to high school. But my desire to go to this orientation is like...50 percent. Why?Well I'll tell you why. 

I don't like meeting people for the first time. I actually kind of hate it. Once again, don't get me wrong, i love being around people and laughing and all that jazz. But meeting people for the first time is the most awkward, uncomfortable thing i've ever had to do. It's like :

"Hi."

"Hi"

"so......"

"how's that weather?"

"dude, it's raining."

"uh..i know."

"ok."

"so....."

      Something along those lines.

 You see what i mean? it's like, some form of torture. What do you want me to say to you? I don't know you dude. Why should i be forced to talk to you under these incredibly awkward conditions? Agh! i'm such a freak, lol. Well whatever, i don't like introductions. Sue me. But honestly, theres nothing to say! If you ask a random question like "what do you like to do in your free time?" it makes no sense in the situation. So thats out. Now you could take the family route and be like "hows your family?", but with my luck, the kid's mom probably just died in a tragic horse accident or something, and the poor kid would run off crying. Its no use. It just HAS  to awkward. But than the second time you meet them, they're like "OH HEY! WAT UP??!" and your thinking "why weren't you this enthusiastic the first time?!" and do you wanna know the answer? THEY felt awkward! Its a big chain or misfortune really.. and until you man up and say hi the second time, the only memory you'll have of that person is awkward silence. 

     Than again, I'm just being weird, like always. If your confident, and don't make the situation weird by feeling nervous, they're not shy either. And there you have a non-weird introduction to a relationship with someone. So why can't i just do it? The only answer is because i'm scared. So I'm going to try my best to walk into that school tonight, say hi and talk to every person i meet, and take away the awkward silence for the other kids that feel the exact same way. I just hope i don't chicken out....

---BuTtOnS*****

Ahhhh...

i am simply LOVING this weather! I've been outside all day. Reading, listening to music, going on my ripstick, etc. Fantastic. I'm actually looking forward to the summer for once, because i hate heat. But hey, its worth the beach trips and picnics and pool parties. Anyways, i saw Star Trek last night and it was frikkin AWESOME! Absolutely great. Like...... so great i can't wait until i can own it and see it again. Really, really good, and funny.

It's been a good weekend, and of course it has to end. I would rather lose a finger than have to return to that inferno they call school. I'm SO frikkin ready to graduate. It just won't come fast enough, and yet its too fast. But I'm ok with it. That didn't make any sense at all, but whatever. Just disregard it. I'm weird. 

Despite my oddities, I've been trying to post more on this site. I've "tweeting" on twitter, and it's oddly addicting. Did i say that in my last post? I don't know. Whatever. Gawd, I'm really scatterbrained today aren't i? I dont know why, i mean, i've been laying outside all day, so i'm tired and rambling. I'm just plain rambling. Wow, ok..i need to shut up now. Lol, ok ok, i'm gonna go and read or something. Or prepare my noose for tomorrow. :(

     ---BuTtOnS*****

Whoa

Sorry, again, but i haven't posted in forEVER! I did get a twitter though, and that was exciting. Its pretty addictive, so i advise either getting one or staying aWAy, because it will morph your mind. lol, just kidding. I'm a weird person. OH, and i advise that you people check out the youtube channel desandnate, because they're really funny. well i have to go, i just felt i should show some love :D

           ---BuTtOnS*****